So damn I am stuck in a tiffy. That oh-so-famous question...Should I stay or should I go? lol. But seriously, I'm in a relationship, a weird relationship, lets call it a semi-relationship. We fight all the time and it sucks, I'm literally crushed and hurt most of the time. I can't help it, I can't help that I'm hurt. I feel like we need to be done I feel like I need to go but I have no strength and he has no will to let me to. Something is pulling us together, What is it? Why can't we just go?
Everday I question if I love him, if he loves me. I believe that I don't and he swears he does. But don't, but what is pulling me? Nothing else can explain but love. If i didn't love him I could go, I could walk away and not care, So the question is why do I want to go, should I go, and do I love him?
HELP???? :(
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
What truly makes me happy
Ok so awful day of shop, the day after christmas, the perfect day to get a webcam! (that was sarcasm). I run to arbys to grab my ultimate favorite, small roast beef, curly fry, and a diet mountain dew baby :]. Of course you have to plow through the curly fries first, then on to the sandwich. Then you get extremely depressed about the fact that you want more curly fries, and they are all gone. But, when you go to throw away the bag, you spot two little happy curly fries waiting for you anxiously at the bottom of the bag....This is the epitamy of eudamonia (thank you mr. holbrook for the word)
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Thursday, December 25, 2008
The only 2 needs in life :)
Ok. The only two things i really wanted for christmas (besides the immaculate laptop), chapstick and orange tic-tacs :)))).
Sorry internet, i'm not trying to look pretty, it's midnight, i'm quite tired and i'm too overwhelmed in this, skype, my beautiful new presents, and that fact that i can't get over this damn sickness.
So i'm going to chalk on the chapstick, swallow a few tic-tacs, and call it a night.
Peace out babe <3
Sorry internet, i'm not trying to look pretty, it's midnight, i'm quite tired and i'm too overwhelmed in this, skype, my beautiful new presents, and that fact that i can't get over this damn sickness.
So i'm going to chalk on the chapstick, swallow a few tic-tacs, and call it a night.
Peace out babe <3
un dia
So yea, i'm definitly in the spanish mood...thanks jake
but anywho, yes good old christmas day. i am loving it. i have finally recieved my child, a nice hp compaq with windows vista....HALLELUJIAH!! lol.
so yes, i feel the need to rant about the past couple of days lol. Well i have came down with an awful case of snot shoved up in my face...a.k.a. pnuemonia lol. i've been cracked out about 50% of the time, how lovely. last night, my great grandma, bless her soul, slipped and fell in her garage, breaking her hip. My mom and grandparents had to get her in the hospital and all situated (which takes forever and a day in hell btw, believe me i know) and decided they were STARVING at 9 at night....so let's see, christmas eve, 9p.m., what is open? NOTHING but the asian buffet baby!! lol. So i had to meet them there. while we were there, WWIII began in the back kitchen where two chinese men were screaming at eachother, i wish u could have understood them. so yea. awesome.
this morning was great, we got up, opened presents, yay got some cool stuff. drove to my dad's opened presents, and recieved this immaculate baby that is now sitting in my lap at this current moment in time :]]]
so yea tomorrow, when walmart is open (which why is it closed today? i thought walmart was reliable? maybe i'll just go to target and say fuck you to walmart lol) i am buying my first ever webcam...ooohhh exciting lol.
so stay posted, hit me up, email me, aim me, do whatever
loves <3
amber
but anywho, yes good old christmas day. i am loving it. i have finally recieved my child, a nice hp compaq with windows vista....HALLELUJIAH!! lol.
so yes, i feel the need to rant about the past couple of days lol. Well i have came down with an awful case of snot shoved up in my face...a.k.a. pnuemonia lol. i've been cracked out about 50% of the time, how lovely. last night, my great grandma, bless her soul, slipped and fell in her garage, breaking her hip. My mom and grandparents had to get her in the hospital and all situated (which takes forever and a day in hell btw, believe me i know) and decided they were STARVING at 9 at night....so let's see, christmas eve, 9p.m., what is open? NOTHING but the asian buffet baby!! lol. So i had to meet them there. while we were there, WWIII began in the back kitchen where two chinese men were screaming at eachother, i wish u could have understood them. so yea. awesome.
this morning was great, we got up, opened presents, yay got some cool stuff. drove to my dad's opened presents, and recieved this immaculate baby that is now sitting in my lap at this current moment in time :]]]
so yea tomorrow, when walmart is open (which why is it closed today? i thought walmart was reliable? maybe i'll just go to target and say fuck you to walmart lol) i am buying my first ever webcam...ooohhh exciting lol.
so stay posted, hit me up, email me, aim me, do whatever
loves <3
amber
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